Guess who's been drawing to avoid reality.
As my alter bunny says, I feel miserable right now. I don't know if it's because I have been listening to Supercell -their songs make me super sad- or bc I can't help to think that I can't do anything right.
I don't know what to do with my life, I got projects and tomorrow I will have a meeting with friends to work on a freelance, it's not like I don't have things to do even though I don't have a job.
Today I got really nice messages on Deviantart, and I should feel happy. My parents are not in town and I have been able to rest and draw all day. I don't have anything to complain about But I can't help to feel sad...
I just want to cry and disappear but tears don't come out.
I have felt like this the whole last weeks, but today I made my hair, maybe looking a little decent would make me feel better. It did but....it's not enough...
What's worse, I don't have anyone to talk about this. That's why I started drawing today. Used the damn tablet and finally do something. The Sora over there is looking pretty decent to me -I guess- I have been using trivial stuff to makes me smile, like Ancafe's new PV, listening to vocaloid again, checking my deviantart (I had months since last time I got in there) being on tumblr and laugh at stupid anime jokes. And all that is so ephemeral...I don't talk to friends because I don't have anything to talk about than this shitty feeling. I don't want to bother anyway.
I really don't want to go out tomorrow. I want to sleep the whole day and don't think about anything at all.
