[I will just say that it really hurts me to see that Forsaken-earl (Ciel roleplayer) from tumblr is struggling so much against her ED. I never imagined she would be in so much pain :( i love her too much... but I'm not someone whose words would change anything...sigh..]
I'm really down you know. Maybe what makes me depressed is that I don't have a fucking job! ;o; I will send my CV and portfolio like crazy to everyone, I will even design for food.... *woof* lie, I don't care about food, I want money! :( I want to start to earn my own money and save and get the hell out of here.
meanwhile, I've been drawing stuff...not the best "thaangs" ever but I have to do something...I'm so bored of being at my house that I would shoot myself. Oh yeah! I have been chatting with someone from tumblr, she added me on facebook last time and we start to talk one of this days. I have to admit I get TOO NERVOUS when someone writes to me, it's fucking nice to meet new people but i'm too damn shy and i'm so afraid that they get tired of me...but i like to talk to her, although i don't write too much or don't give the cleverest replies.
I hope I get to know her better. I'm sad because I feel like a lost a friend but talking to her makes me feel relieved.
Haven't drawn any Kuroshitsuji lately. which makes me kind of sad because I really enjoy drawing Ciel. Maybe tomorrow
I'm really down you know. Maybe what makes me depressed is that I don't have a fucking job! ;o; I will send my CV and portfolio like crazy to everyone, I will even design for food.... *woof* lie, I don't care about food, I want money! :( I want to start to earn my own money and save and get the hell out of here.
meanwhile, I've been drawing stuff...not the best "thaangs" ever but I have to do something...I'm so bored of being at my house that I would shoot myself. Oh yeah! I have been chatting with someone from tumblr, she added me on facebook last time and we start to talk one of this days. I have to admit I get TOO NERVOUS when someone writes to me, it's fucking nice to meet new people but i'm too damn shy and i'm so afraid that they get tired of me...but i like to talk to her, although i don't write too much or don't give the cleverest replies.
I hope I get to know her better. I'm sad because I feel like a lost a friend but talking to her makes me feel relieved.
Haven't drawn any Kuroshitsuji lately. which makes me kind of sad because I really enjoy drawing Ciel. Maybe tomorrow
